Only the real representatives of the union could participate in collective bargaining with owner (in which they could negotiate the new term of the salary with the owner). Without paying their dues, they're still haven't been acknowledged as the member of union
The ¨mandatory dues¨ asked by the unions are not much (practically none), since it´s a voluntary system implemented, normally all the members pay a ¨agency fee¨ but not more than that, this changes depending on the personal involvement with the union.
a natural person can refuse the membership at any moment, without issues, and this way avoid any kind of activity with the union, including contributing with money (dues) or duties.
However when this happens, the person it´s restricted to certain activities like participate in union elections, general or important meetings, and the contribution in the bargain for the collective elections is banned as well, these as main aspects to highlight.
you aren't worthless, you are a one of a kind person who, deserves happiness like anyone else, you may not get it but everyone deserves happiness. i hope this .